This is a rare occourance on my page ...
For once its not just me writting
here is the argument

All the things i wish i cud say to you

I wish I could say I knew why.
I wish I could tell you that I knew
because if I knew,
this wouldn't have happened
and I wouldn't have to wish I could say I was sorry.

I wish I cud say I'll be there in the morning
to help you pick up the pieces,
but instead I left the mess I made
with you
standing with broom in hand
and a bucket full of tears.

I wish I could say my heart had been with you always,
never wavered or even strayed.
I wish I could have been as strong as you
to hold on to that pain that reminds us
we're alive.

I wish I could tell you
it would never happen again,
but from experience I know that might not be true.
I wish with every fiber I could tell you
it wont happen again,
and that it would be true.

I wish my brain would stop
throwing that curtain over my eyes
so I could dig deep enough to find
words strong enough to express my regret.

I wish I had know better in life
than to put you in a corner of my mind
for even those infinitesimal seconds
when you should always be front and center.

I wish I could tell you its all going to be OK.
I wish I could be your masked superhero
rescuing you from every demon,
pain and sadness in this world.
I shudder to imagine what you have gone through,
I wish I could have blocked them all
so you could have the peaceful and happy life you deserve.
Then I die when I think about how I just added to the pile.

I wish I could say I learned from my mistakes.
I wish I hadn't run that night.
Even then, the thought of hurting you was too much to bear.
The bathroom door could not lock out the tears.

I wish I knew what was happening.
I wish I didn't hurt you.
I wish you knew how much I want you
to succeed and be happy,
even if it means my destruction.

I wish I could have met your eye
for even a single second.
I was scared that all I would find
was just an empty shell.

but most of all,
I wish I cud say
with all my heart and all my soul
through every painful second of every day without you,
i love you

My reply

the unatainable dream

you once said ,it will never be
that i should never dream of you and me
that every hope , smile and dream
would crumble at the seem

i didnt care and fought to prove you wrong
wrtting and writting to sing you the right song
but alas no avail ,
it had come to the point where i had failed

One more chance you said as you opened your arms
little did i know you would hear alarms
when on a important day i made you say
the one set of words i hold close to this day

Somehow it was lost to sea,
and you destroyed the conception of you and me
so i traveled on and made my name
thinking from then on i was the one to blame

returning home for a rest unknown
it seemed you were always on my phone
distracted and unawear i decided to take a second look
but again i find my self writting this god forsaken book

because all i won whilst away
now becomes vanurable by the day
still lost and comfused to hell
i am back at the start waiting for the bell

the challenge was set and the virtues remain
you can have what you want when you decide to play the game
forget not what was once said
some things will never change untill i am dead

but alas myths may die by the fall of a night
as i dont know if i can with stand another fight